Dear Anxiety

From the nights you had me up
To the many times you made my heart race,
Second by second,
Beat by beat,
You had me at one realization
I couldn’t keep you anymore
You were the excuse i used
When no one else knew
When no one thought it was true
As a growing student
Heavily burdened by you
I always saw the whole actuality
I never saw
Why you chose me
And you had me disputed
Always in dispute Photo by Ian
From you
Only you
You requested my hurt
I gave it all to you
Because I was self doubted
Just for comfort
I kept up emotions
I pursued for strength
Although it was out of reach
I struggled to endure because of YOU
You became my natural aptitude
When a baby stands it begins
to walk
When a body is exhausted it
Is determined to rest
You bestowed a 12 year old girl
apprehension to unknown fear
Her discovery of contemporary
found view
Yet her parasite for unwanted
new
I always love the way you gave
me a reason to receive comfort